Hi,
its been a loooong time huh
i decided to randomly spill my anxieties today. im having one of those days where my acne is affecting my daily life- i skipped my morning lecture cuz of my cystic pimple around my mouth. oh skin lol
i was dressed and put my foundation on, but i couldnt get myself out of the apartment. my poor housemate who tolerates with my daily complaints left by herself. while i stayed still undecided if i should go to the lecture. i took my contacts off and then put them back on. i looked in the mirror several times. i waited for my pimples to calm down and stop bleeding so i could cover them.
i waited... tried doing work... couldnt cuz i was thinking about my face...watched a 'how to love yourself' youtube video...went back to the mirror and u knw wat happens when u have pimples and ur infront of a mirror
i layered more foundation, looked cakey so i washed my face again... oh god im gonna be late for my next lecture now. half of me wants to skip that too but im gonna go now
i pray i dont become a total bitch today to those who dont understand how im feeling right now
hope u have a nice day, if anyone ever reads this and ur going through something similar x
acne sucks...it has ruined my life....people make fun of me....even my husband...my daughter...my son never does. people out an about have. people are mean...very mean. and I have tried to commit suicide because of it...but I always come back....I hate my effin life. There is NO GOD...if there was he would not deform peoples faces with acne and the give others great skin. If there was a GOD so much shit would happen to people..I thought GOD was loving and kind. He is NOT. life fucking sucks....I have tried everything ….docs try to help you but they do not. I am so done with my life
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